Every day I am so conscious I am going to be a mother and it gladdens my heart so much. But what I fear most is what impact will my parenting have on my child? Will I be the mother that curbs her/his naturalness? Will I be the mother that will leave a scar on my child's impression of this world? So what I think are mostly questions doubting my ability to be a mother, a good mother?

But I know deep down, this will be an endeavor I will always be putting my 100% into. So I give up wondering what a Mom, I will be.


Puneet's course mate gave birth to a baby girl, now the girl had a achy pregnancy and was constantly worried about labour and the rest. But she called yesterday to say she was happy with her hospital and had a good birth expeience. The baby started to cry and interrupted us, so will talk to her for details at a later time.

I love happy birth stories.

Yesterday, a senior coleague asked what I wish for this year- I said a more responsible job and a happy healthy baby. He immediately said, a happy healthy baby is the first priority.

I AGREE!